ciao, sei molto bella

i decided to clean my closet out and get rid of some clothes and also see whats wearable and now im sitting on my floor sobbing

nothing fits me, im hideous.

i want to throw it all out and never leave my bed.

so, i decided to participate in no weigh april. I weighed myself the first week of april and thats it. I had trouble with my recovery, and i honestly didn’t do much lately, as i have reported a few times. i’m having some health troubles that have made me upset, it was hard to focus on much else.

so im back on the wagon fully now, and i had to weigh myself. Did i do much damage in april? Was i back where i started?
No, and no.

I am 245.2 pounds, up 3.1 pounds in the past month since i stopped working out. I don’t think that is too bad at all, and i am ready to pick up where i left off.

and, you know, i have to admit, that not coming on here every day and posting like a machine really affected me. I felt like i had no support again, no motivation. I didn’t have that get up and go attitude that i’ve been bathing in at first. So, blogging really helps. I hope you’ll all welcome me back with open arms, i know ive been awful.

anyway, breakfast and gym for me. I’ll see ya soon!

5lbs is 5 lbs, ladies and gentleman. Muscle takes up less space, sure, but it is impossible for 5 pounds of muscle to weigh less than 5 pounds of fat. Don’t read that and believe it. The internet is full of false facts and people telling you things

5 pounds of feathers, 5 pounds of steel
5 pounds of muscle, 5 pounds of fat

which one weighs the most?

5 POUNDS

it won’t hurt me anymore.

It doesnt seep into my bones and sink into my skin and burn my heart

“Fat” is just a word, and “Fat” is not me.